siti's story

2010-03-21T17:54:00.004+08:00

And so, 4 days and 3 nights sailed like never before.Of course, I was excited as it was my virgin trip to Phuket by sea.In fact, the first time travelling by sea.Well, I didn't have so much of expectations but instead, I planned to just go with the flow and enjoy every moment the camp had to offer.Indeed, new friends and countless memories were made.I guess, throughout the whole journey, I hadn't experienced a speck of setback. =D As you'll soon see, how much elated I am in every photo.

Before going on board with DMTM/FT/1B/01.

The first night on board. =)

2nd day, while waiting for the personnel to bring us around the ship's galley and engine room.And you know what, one engine is even bigger than my house. =

Yes, this is Phuket.The sun was great and 2 Japanese student spent their whole trip at Phuket with us.Shi-Yoshi and Shoya.They're great company. =)

After spending 8 hot hours on shore, it was the ultimate Gala Night & Dinner.These are the 4 students from Japan Toba National College of Maritime Technology.

The guys in our kawan-kawan.Ouh, Haikal is missing. And by the way, this was taken on the last day when the cruise was entering HarbourFront Port (waters ? I have no idea how do I address that).

Not forgetting, Syafizah.She's one patient lad who took photos of us, both photogenic and nonsensical.

I thank you and I do owe you big time. =D

That's about it. =D This, of course is one of the best moments in my life.Gratitude to Eeja, Yuyul, Haikal, Feiq, Khai, Ariffin and the rest who had made my experience wholeful. =D

And now, time for work and camps.

2010-03-06T23:00:00.003+08:00

Okay.It's been super duper long since I last updated.It seems that I'll be updating once in a month, from what the pattern is like.

I'm very thankful for whatever that is in my possession now, physically and spiritually and whatever not.Yesterday marks one of the adventurous moments in my SP life.Night cycling that is.From SP to Lau Pa Sat to Marina Barrage to some place peculiar to me at Kallang and of course, to ECP, the last stop. =) I really enjoyed it.Gratitude to wonderful SMAC people.

I really have a lot of simple pleasures to be done.Kite-flying, hiking, getting a hair-cut, etc.Heh.All to be done before the month of April, before I get my butt working and stop lazing at home.Ouhh, yes, went to watch Ellis performance at Esplanade Library today.I bet they're going to be successful one day, really. =)

Till then.Have a good time all !

No Regrets.

2010-02-05T08:38:00.004+08:00

Life as I knew it, has never been fair, to me at least.And to the capacity of my knowledge, people do change, so do I.

For now, life has given me a whole lot of second chances and that couldn't have been more unfair.Well, I've gotten a thoughtful class representative to teach me business statistics which I totally suck at.Besides that, I'm done with Cargo Handling and I thank Captain Bakhitiar for his lessons.Apart from that, revision is moving along smoothly.On a delightful note, I involuntarily volunteer ( since the class tutor sucks big time and that he didn't choose 6 of us ) to go for Maritime Experiential Learning (MEL) Camp.Well, I'm not that desperate to go on a cruise though I haven't been on one but I'm willing to give in since only 6 out of 7 of us are "allowed" to go.I don't mind, really. =)

Ouh, did I mention that I spent like 3-4 hours in school on Wednesday to watch 2 movies ? - Inkheart and Mine, Yours, Ours.Initially, the plan was to study statistics by myself but then I thought I'd tried my best and I should give myself a break and so, bumped into Hazwan.He didn't want to head home early, so there it went.

Silat ? This must be the 100th time I'll mention that it has never been a setback.Even study sessions had been really successful and I'm very glad Stupidbrother came along.With keen observation, I'd realize that he's becoming more obedient and serious in his studies I suppose.Ouh, yes.When the school's having CCA Showcase sometime later, I thought of joining the Bowling Club, seriously.I have Adventure Club in mind too.There are just so many things I want to fulfill right now and being a minimalist, it doesn't really help.That goes to show I ought to live my life.Let's just anticipate till exam is over and from there, let the mission begin.

Life for now, is just what I need.Having a cute uncle on a bicycle smiled at me yesterday, that's life.

I've got class at 11 and I'm off now.
Have a good day everyone !

p.s. I miss my like this much.

2010-01-26T01:52:00.004+08:00

( Azie, this is legend.Heh.My first time rollerblading and it was effing pathetic.I miss post-Olevels period. )

It's never easy when you return.At the very next moment, you'll be gone and me, I have to put up with whatever you've done because I do miss you sometimes.It's blissful so thank you.

Let's see.Cargo Handling paper is on Wednesday.Glad I've started revising.Knee snapped again, like forever.Pfffft.I reckon I really need to consult a doctor.Well, nothing much had happened lately.Just waiting for holidays to come, when all the burden of being a 1st year student will be far gone(not exactly) and I could meet up with my girls. =) Ouh yes.I signed up as a member of Wicked Aura SP Version but not updated about any session yet.I also thought of taking up archering as a development programme.Maybe I'll see how it goes.

Having SMA Bowling Competition tomorrow.I'm no expert in bowling but I'll try my best.Heh.All the best for the team.

Goodnight world.
Goodnight to you too.See you in my dreams. <3

2010-01-18T23:05:00.003+08:00

It's already Mid-January.How time flies ~

I must admit my life revolves around Silat, more or less.I guess it's about the
people. =) Of course, I really think that it's even better than school,
seriously.I've just got to put up with school.

Well, that's for now.Nothing much happened.

You just have to move on.Please.

2010-01-10T23:10:00.002+08:00

Okay.Guess what ? I've just made myself a jug of Lipton Tea.A jug or what ? Haha.Ya, ya.I know how easy it is and I agree to that.It's just that it's been long since I last had tea.

Alright.I've been sick lately.But some of the days, hmmm...I...I'd rather call them self-claimed holidays.School's not good or should I say I'm not being good.Time spent in school? Well, that's not mandatory.

On Saturday, went to Aini's crib for her Khatam.( I've no idea what it is in English.Thanksgiving for someone who has completed reading the whole Quran with proper pronounciation and stuff ?) Really proud of her.Of course we had heaps of catching-ups, with Julie too.I miss that chatterbox man.Headed for Silat training after that.As usual, Silat has never been a bore for me. =)

Today, woke up early morning to kinda supervise Silat juniors for a performance and I saw Naval Base Secondary School Councillors.Ha-ha.They're unknown to me, obviously.Everything well and then headed to Nee Soon South C.C for some store-keeping.Everything's in place now.Paddings, punching bags, vests, skipping ropes and any deadly stuff you can ever think of for training.Even Bamboo poles.Psychotic I tell you.That aside, I'm satisfied this whole day.The clan even bowled.Just so, very glad.

Photos will be uploaded a little bit later.For now, watch this.

2010-01-05T15:56:00.003+08:00

The New Year Training. We're small but we bring everything to another level.

The unity we have.Very proud of them.

Leisure part of training-UNO. Of course, the trainer from Indonesia.

Babes of 2008 Naval Base graduates.

Alvin and the Chipmunks with them.

Spent some kiddo time with Azie - Balloons&Bubbles.

Well, those were the last bit of my 2009.If there's any regret I'll mention, it would be my knee.As I said, that is the biggest regret and I'll be sore about it for my entire life.

2009-12-27T03:53:00.003+08:00

Firstly, I miss Khid.Khid, if you're reading this, I miss you. =)

Secondly, Naz was all hyped about the theatre on To Kill a Mockingbird that she watched the black-and-white movie.I swear she was cute.Please la hor, don't perasan.

Thirdly, I realized that we wore the same OBS shirt which is kental dodol so we decided to take a shot.Heh.

And my instructor FORGOT that I'd torn my knee ligament and there it goes again.He always made me a dummy for examples.That, I don't mind.The thing is that, he FORGOT.Damn it.I couldn't withstand, I teared.

And you, you'll always be my sweetheart.You know, I really love you.Aaaaaaaah.*Chuckles*

2009-12-26T01:44:00.004+08:00

At last, got Ibu Titus watch for her 45th birthday.For me, I indulged myself with a lot of shopping temptations and also food.Had Popiah for lunch and then McDonald's 70cents Ice-cream. =) A little bit later, Naz headed for her granny and me, I took the train all the way to Renjong Station ( ? ) and found my way to Feiq's new place for housewarming.Heh, the place is really cosy.

You know what's the worst thing that I've ever had ? My @!$#$%&^%$##@#@!@!#@$#%$#^$@%#!$!$#%$#^%^%$&^$%^$%&^$%&^*&^*&@$#$%%^^&^$%#@#!#!#!$%$#^% knee.Fuck it !

I've always love sports, everything about it, especially Silat (my accidental passion when Ayah sent me for Silat training when I was only 6).It's the feeling of overcoming your fear, conquering the arena and dominating the match, that's for the match side unlike the artistic side.Now, I can't do nothing much.Well, unless I resist the pain of bones rubbing each other and also wobbly knees, I could pursue my passion.

For another time, fuck it.

2009-12-23T17:29:00.006+08:00

( Courtesy of NazJayy )

Yesterday, a mundane yet unexpected day.Slacked a whole day except that I was working my way through school projects.Yeah, tell me about it.-____-

I also worked my way to making a rose out of the Ferrero Rocher wrapper which turned out, hmm, not that bad.All thanks to the ever beneficial Youtube.And then, Abang Fad texted me if whether or not I was up for training and of course I agreed.Rather than rotting at home.

AND, highlight of the night, Abang Fad offered me a ride home.I was very, very reluctant at first but then he said I could count on him.And then, guess what, I agreed. -_____- Wait, my heart was STILL thumping, knowing how adventurous he is.I was thinking about, you know, all the possibilities that could happen.Well, I enjoyed the gush of wind into my face.It was fun and after all, I wasn't afraid.And all he could say was "Dik, muke takya cramp uh."

Ouh, I hope everything's going to be smooth for his whatever-throat-infection-tumour surgery he's having now.

Last night was crazy.

2009-12-22T01:07:00.003+08:00

Ibu cooked rice porridge and anchovies&groundnuts for Ayah but I ate them.I mean eating now.With fruits and chocolates stock in, I can't stop munching.I'm still having aches all over thigh and stomach.Damn it !

Nothing much today.Had a really good time alone cycling and swinging myself away at the playground. =)

2009-12-21T01:28:00.003+08:00

( credits to Azie )

It's been a while since I last appeared for training (minus the ones for competitions).And when I came yesterday, I mean 2 days ago, it was hell of a training.Fitness, stretching and drills were crazy.Abang Fad made a grand appearance on that day and he was my saviour.I snapped my stupid knee AGAIN and he lifted me like one princess.Ha-ha.I use to miss him a lot and now, he's back ! =)

Stupidbrother just cannot stop bugging me with his "Kak, aku nak check Facebook account aku jap.10 minutes je", eversince the home desktop is being an ass.Well, I must admit his company is necessary.

And Ibu, hahahahaha.She fell during Hijrah Night Cycling 2 days ago.I know, but I just can't afford not to laugh.She's been supporting me in whatever I'm doing real well. =) I love her.

Big bear, big bear.Heh.You're growing every time I see you.Anyway, pardon the picture.The slippers part is just merely for fun.Why do I meet you every time ? I miss the rest of the girls too you know.Booo !

And this bunch, they rock my sock.Wait, Faqih is not in this picture.Congratulations to Afin, Shah, Dan and Ahmad for winning the SMA Amazing Race at Sentosa.To Eja and Faqih, we indeed were best-prepared for the race.Thanks to Fairul for the monkey company too.

Off to watch movie.

Night everyone.Goodnight Hazel. =)

2009-12-16T00:19:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry for this.

I fucking hate it when Wiky sees a gecko and tries his best to catch it.
ERGH !!!

2009-12-15T12:05:00.001+08:00

I miss

LINA

&

DIAN

&

YANQING

&

AZIE.

Can we please................................meet up ?

2009-12-14T23:34:00.005+08:00

Pweeeeeeeety Nurul =)

( You can like ignore the muscle -____- )

Adjusting some stuff.Hmmmm...

All right.Here we go.A lot had been happening and now I find a decent time to post about it.Met up with Nurul and Nazjayy and also Sentosa, after a loooong time.I didn't do much except for blabbering crap and these two bimbos had been great company entertaining me.Sometimes, we just need to loosen up and shout "Fucking old ! " =) For all those involuntary, unnecessary comments, I thank both of you.

Naz, you know you just have to bear with me.

*Smooooches*

Well, this group here, is one extraordinary team.They're much younger then me and they definitely had put up with my impatience lately.I really miss those times I throw swear words at them just because things were not perfect.To Farid, Rosydi, Marzuki and Haqim, you guys rock my baju silat !

And be reminded, we're up for GOLD next year. =)

Azie and YanQing, you guys are heaven !

And you, I just can't erase you off my soul.
I envy that you're good in everything you do.

You're undeniable.

For now, I'm satisfied.That's the best word I could think of.

Goodnight world.

Thank you god, for this life.

2009-12-12T01:42:00.001+08:00

Eeeee, every founding about you, I feel like killing you.
Grrrrrrrr.

2009-12-07T01:02:00.004+08:00

So far, Naz hasn't tagged any photo of mine for today's event.I reckon she's really busy.I mean really.

Alright, I would take this opportunity to thank YQ, coming immediately after Standard Chartered Run, Azie and Naz, for taking photos of any kind. =) Thank you guys so much. *Bighug*
For Farid, Marz, Rosydi and Haqim, all of sure tolerated my impatience and negativity.Pardon me and thank me too cause WE go 2nd. =) Just as what I'd expected.

And Alfian, you never fail to make smile, always.Even you smiled. =P

Later, MST commences and of course, I'll have no life for just this week.

Have a goodnight Earthlings.
You too.

2009-12-05T00:52:00.002+08:00

My life's pretty much the same now.Made a couple of new friends.Wait, I just have to mention this.Some people really forget and I think I ought to remind them sometimes.It's okay.It's always okay.

I've been really busy with this upcoming Silat competition on Sunday.Well, it was kinda impromptu, the fact that I was chosen.Yet, training for 5 consecutive days had been productive and also that the steps we had fit nicely along with the music.Just can't wait to get it over and done with and of course, I'm targetting 1st runner-up, frankly.

Currently on MSN with Alfian and he's been great, listening to my rambling.Haha.Thank you. =)

Won't be turning in that early today since it's FULL MOON. =)

2009-12-04T01:55:00.000+08:00

I have no idea why I'll tear everytime you raise your voice.

2009-11-30T02:39:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, people just forget.
But I'll still remember.
I will.

2009-11-28T02:51:00.001+08:00

Anybody have any rational idea why we love ?

I'm asking this decent question just because I'm in love ?

Wait, what's love anyway ?

Haiyo ~

2009-11-23T21:20:00.003+08:00

I've not a single clue on why I am friggin' tired.It's absolute fatigue I could even fall asleep in the kitchen.I just had a very late dinner.Ibu's been cooking nice food these days, those favourable to me.Colourful salad with thousand island, black pepper beef, sweet and sour fish and the list goes on. =)

Have I told you that my left arrow key on my laptop is missing and I feel rather pathetic.Everything about today is pathetic.Ergh.

Maybe I should just make myself a cup of hot chocolate, enjoy some marshmellows and do some E-assignment.

And of course, may you should give me a break.

2009-11-21T00:37:00.002+08:00

Munching away almost every single night.Well, I just like the way it is.Plus, Wiky never fails to make the house livelier, even peaceful.I've not been good lately.I mean, I've skipped school and not doing house chores.Wait, at least assignments are in good shape.

I'd watched a play in NYP just then with Naz.'Terasa'.Sometimes, most of the times perhaps, people just misjudge and then it leads to ignorance which will eventually makes them plunge into a pool of trouble.We're unaware but it happens.Even I do.As far as I'm concerned, I'll try my best not to disclaim my mistake. =)

On a lighter note of course, indulged myself for a little retail therapy.Naz was kind enough to accompany.
Guess what ? I've been considering to change to Tumblr.I've no idea.

And you, you should thank me, you know.Eeee...spank you then you know.Nevermind.Meeting you was already great.

Ouh, ouh, please support Naz's flea booth at Homeclub@ClarkeQuay tomorrow.I mean later.

Have good night.

2009-11-18T00:54:00.001+08:00

Why do I care about you , always ?

2009-11-14T02:10:00.003+08:00

It's drizzling right now.I know it's very commendable that I turn in now but I just have to stay up.There are many reasons and I'll let them unfold one by one smoothly.I'll let them take their places perfectly.

Well, I've been thinking a lot these days ( like I never did ).One of them is that I'm going to give up on my work real soon.If it's going to get any better, perhaps, I'll take a break in December and maybe January too.In addition to the burden I'm hunching, there are even more projects this semester.But as long as I'm here, we'll get this through.I ought to mention this.The class, girlfriends, family (not as much) and of course Wiky, have been a great help.These are pillars that make me move, not stagnant.

As known of me, I never really like to come for work because I'm tired, at least.Somehow, a kind of satisfaction relieved my helpless soul.Greeting guests and having them responding, it's just motivating, really.Maybe that is why I'm still staying.It's the vibe.And yes, just yesterday was World Kindness Day and I'd gotten free Magnum.How awesome though it was shivering cold at the island.

If anyone even cares to read this effing lengthy post, I thank you. =)

Have a goodnight and of course a good weekend.
Thank you.

2009-11-12T02:58:00.002+08:00

Specially for you.

If it happens that you're reading this, I miss you.I miss going out with you discreetly, trying to hide from anyone you and I know, we know.It's been long, really.If they were to ask me whether I love you, I'm afraid I'll have no as my answer.But you know, I've always wanted to start the love all over again.Maybe one day, we'll meet and pretend we only know each other for a few days.I just miss you. =(

2009-11-11T20:44:00.003+08:00

How peaceful is that ? I've always wanted to travel and walk through flawless green field.

Currently taking a pretty short break from statistics. =)
Heh.I just had my dinner.It's been long since I had a very homely cooked food by Ibu.The fish was superb.I shall have more of it later.

I'm off now.Back to statistics and Singapore Idol.Bleargh.

We should go out sometime you know.

2009-11-10T01:20:00.002+08:00

As much as i know it's supposed to be, I just need a speck to ruin it.Pffft.I shall stay put, pretend nothing had happened and let nature takes its course, conspicuously. =)

And then, needless do I need to be worried.

I need to get a life. -____-

2009-11-09T20:58:00.003+08:00

Life's been great with all wonderful people around.I ought to be more open. =)

YQ's birthday, Ellis and more.

Ey, going out with Ellis seems fun !

2009-10-29T15:59:00.002+08:00

Currently in school.
Maybe I should change my URL.Or even privatize my blog.But nothing seems appropriate.It would be redundant.

Okay, I shall stick with this.
Bye ~

03 / 04, I miss you guys. =)

2009-10-20T13:02:00.002+08:00

Okay.
I swear I've never felt this way before.This classroom, I want to connect to the people.They are eventually my classmates.I'm reluctant perhaps.I don't know.I need to talk, speak up, whatever it is.Argh ! I need my class back !

Half an hour more to go and I could get my brain working.At least, everybody's in their own seats and I won't feel awkward later.Half an hour, please.

2009-10-20T01:54:00.002+08:00

Yeah, one hard knock on my head will do.In fact, Ian practically did smack my forehead.BONUS !

School has already started.

Thankfully, Captain Lim was thoughtful enough to spare me a place in some other class that is foreign to me.The thing is that, I don't have to continue in SP for additional 6 months.You'll never understand what I'm stating but just bear with me, please.Well, nothing much changed in school.Everything's in place less the changing of class.It's okay.

That's all for now.

Wait, have you ever fall in love ? It's just a game isn't it ? Somehow, a kite represents love metaphorically.Heh.I think I'm paranoid.

Goodnight, let me tell you one time.*wink*

2009-10-15T03:08:00.002+08:00

What a great day.I guess great days are so because of the people around me ? Or maybe it's just another day.Ouh well.Met up with Nurul Nazira just then.She was kind enough to accompany my bloody self to Junction8 to send my phone for service.That phone, less than a week since I got it.How more bloody could it be.

And I just have to admit this.Hazel, he's been one loyal company.Anytime of the day/night, he's just a text message away for me to confide in.For that, I thank you very nice.Ouh, we even met him for a bit.And yes, I would like to wish him the best of luck.May he be safe and sound and back in one piece after his TP test ( whatever they call it ).

That was kinda off.Heh, I'm sorry.Back to the story.So Naz and I went to her place and watched Singapore Idol.I've always envied anyone with lots of siblings. =| They just make the house more lively, doesn't matter if they're just utter nonsense.

I could never asked for more.
Alhamdullillah. =)
Goodnight everyone.

( Actually, I'm not turning in just yet )

2009-10-14T02:09:00.003+08:00

AZIE, I envy you.You could play the medium difficulty.
I'm going to be as good as you so soon.
We're sorry we messed up your place. =)

Okay Go !

Firstly, went to Starbucks@Northpoint and met up with Azie and YQ.Naz was late since she's coming from school.Boo ~
And there went our impromptu plan - dinner at Azie's place and of course, Guitar Heroes ! I swear we were frantic.Frantic "strumming" the guitar, testing our vocals and of course, hit the right beat on the drums.It was fantastic and that obviously, we rocked Azie place.We were simply fortunate not having her neighbours to complain.
Finally, it struck us that we needed to get home.Even Ibu didn't call me to ask my whereabouts.I guess she thought I was at work.Heh.Since YQ was taking the cab home, she sent me to the MRT and also Naz to her block.YQ, do you want your 20cents cab fare ?

2009-10-10T03:25:00.002+08:00

I find this HOT ~
Haha ! Mentel, I know.

Goodnight !

2009-10-08T01:11:00.006+08:00

Hujan was exceptionally great.I like the keyboardist/pianist and the vocalist too.The vocalist is adorable and selambe.Ouh ya.There were a group of Mat Skudai-s too.They were Hafiz's clan I suppose.And of course, I met Hafiz Syukri already, whom I know him through Naz and Azie.He's indeed irritating, just as I'd expected.

Apart from that, Naz and I had a meal over at 18 Chefs.It was commendable. =)

You know when you bump into someone you haven't met for quite a long time and that you used to talk to him or her, your instant reflex is to hug that someone or well, at least say "hello, how have you been?" That is what I'll do when the those situations arise.
Sigh.I guess I'm unfortunate enough that someone I used to talk to didn't even bother.

People simply change.I do to.It's going to be fine.I'll move on.Anyway, he's hot.

Yan.He was the bodyguard for Hujan's Concert.
Yeah, he's the one I'd mentioned.

2009-10-06T23:25:00.003+08:00

Movie date with superb.Heh.I'd never regretted dating azie.It doesn't really matter what kind of date we're on because we're lame. =) The Ugly Truth, like finally.Planned to catch it at Causeway Point but we ended up watching it at Junction 8.Shopped a little bit too.

Azie, we shall find time to cycle to Lower Seletar again.

Tomorrow, it's going to rain, I swear.
HUJAN !

2009-10-05T23:29:00.003+08:00

Just got back from work and most importantly, Abang Zahrin drove me home.It's been quite a long time since a last saw him.

Can't wait for a movie date with Azie tomorrow.
A short post I must say.

So long.
Goodnight.
=)

2009-10-05T01:14:00.003+08:00

A whole lot of laughter.Ouh yes, a photo of us, with Silat National Coach ~ Abang Kadir.
Anyway, this wasn't even half of the squad.Those period of time, one of the best in my life. =)

2009-10-02T17:27:00.001+08:00

C-H-I-L-L-A-X

2009-10-02T00:10:00.002+08:00

Currently watching a show on Channel 5.There are Nicole Richie and Paris Hilton in it.Hope it would be a nice one to watch and that it could vanish my stomach ache away.Yeah, though it would be gone with the wind but it came back.@#$#%$^!$.

Work was REAL bad just then.Don't want to talk about it.

Thought my semester result would be known to Ibu via myself, as in verbally.I reckon she had discovered the letter posted by my school and thus, she opened it.I wouldn't want that to happen.I wanted to inform her personally.Guess I am too good at delaying.Ergh ! The agony is exceedingly infuriating.Ergh !!! Feel like banging my head against the wall.

I WILL do better the next time round.

Goodnight.

ERGH !!!

2009-10-01T14:14:00.002+08:00

Since Naz mentioned how great The Ugly Truth was, I thought I'll check it out.Guess what ? A movie date with Azie.Wee ~

And, calling for anyone who's up to date me or have a date with me and Paper Hearts.I swear the trailer's cute. =)

BYE !

2009-10-01T01:37:00.003+08:00

Wiky's soundly asleep.Phew ! After quite long of playing bunny-and-the-rabbit ( ? ).I was nibbling some cheese bread or some sort and he came around sniffing, manouvering his way to the plate of cheese bread.I took it further, and he followed of course.He even climbed over my laptop.( Sorry Zie. ) He sure brings enlightenment into my life. =)

You know, I could foresee that when my brother grows up, he'll be the just-another-kid-amused-by-Youtube.His eyes, fixated to the laptop screen, a video after another.Pffft.I'll let him be.

Ouh, I'm no crazy fan of Singapore Idol but I strongly believe that Farhan Shah shall go carry his sorry ass home.Heh.

Night all.

2009-09-29T23:23:00.003+08:00

Greetings !

I'm really thankful for the health I'm given till this very second.Was vomiting for literal 7 times yesterday.I swear it was @#$%ing painful, excruciating.Maybe I ate too much.Never felt that painful before.Well, after all that pain, I deserve a hot, big bowl of scrumptious chicken porridge. =)

Let's not talk about this because I'm fine now.It's been long since I last made a lengthy entry.Maybe not now.If everything's fine tomorrow, I'm going to pay Caldecott Broadcasting Centre a visit for Singapore Idol.Weee ! Naz has got free tickets and I'm super-duper ecstatic.

Wait, I've yet to tell ibu about me repeating a module.
Sheeesh, monster uh !

2009-09-28T01:03:00.002+08:00

MALAS nak update. -____-

A lot had happened, including you.
Raya with Islanders and also maternal relatives.Lorry ride was uber awesome with "Lovely Cousins".Ha-ha.

Next Raya outing would be with 4Es, DX ( lame name, I know ) and Redcampers.Well, guess I was wrong claiming this year's raya isn't that great.

Alright, off to play ball with Wiky.

Goodnight.

2009-09-23T15:32:00.003+08:00

Don't ask because I did NOT study.
Repeat, yeah, awful.Very awful.

Tu la Fida.Tido lagi sampai 3, 4 pagi.

2009-09-23T02:32:00.002+08:00

Today, I spent my 3rd day Raya to the clinic, Mama Shop and Northpoint Shopping Centre.That place has changed a lot I must say.After such a dreadful period of time, I indulged myself with Starbucks.Aaaaaaahhhh.I know right.Naz was grateful to treat me Nachos from Pastamania.Heeee.

For now, life's been great.Maybe not till I get my result.Pffft.

Well, first to visit my place - Abang On/Onn ?

*Giggle.....................*

2009-09-22T02:33:00.001+08:00

Did I mention my family and I went to Geylang for 2 consecutive nights before Raya ? *Grins*

2009-09-22T02:13:00.004+08:00

( That Kuih Raye sebok liao. )

Nah, maternal all the way !

2009-09-18T03:32:00.003+08:00

Whoa.Again, I need all these now.The photo shows a lot ey ? Heh.Laughters.
Lalalala ~

I miss you,

and you,

and you !

We need to meet and laugh. =D
Thank you everyone.

2009-09-17T03:47:00.002+08:00

Have I ever mentioned if there's anything you could hold on to, they will be friends and family ? Yes, it's true and worth mentioning.

Have you ever wondered why do people do things ? Or why things happen ?
I still am wondering.

Maybe life it's not worth wondering.Maybe life is better of living. =)

I admit I'm hurt.Just so you know, I'm living life and getting hurt is part and parcel of it.

Ouh god RAYA, please come save planet earth.

2009-09-13T00:42:00.003+08:00

An outing, just in the right time.Just what I needed.
It's amazing how we quarrel and having mini-fights and end eventually confide into each other again.I strongly believe in cherishing friends.They're just the perfect remedy when you're diagnosed with any kind of illness.For now, I declare that lovers are mandatory.You can live without them when you think carefully about it.

Well, some of you might be thinking I'm stating all these as a result of my devastation.Maybe not, because I just realized it.I guess I just have to be involved in more outings.

Currently am tidying up the wardrobe.Folding the clothes very neatly and classifying them too.Ouh, and I ought to mention about a new being in my place ~ A cat, Wicky ? Weeky ? Wiky ? I have clueless on how to spell it but that's what we call it.Awww.

2009-09-10T15:10:00.000+08:00

I would like to thank

HALIM, RAUDHA, MINQUAN, HANIS, AZIZI, ELLE, YUSRI, REDZUAN, ELLA, AMIRUL and of course, NORAINI
for finding my necklace pendant. =)
Thank you so much.I owe you guys big time.

And I'm definitely looking forward to Attractions Raya Outing.Ouh, and this coming Friday too.

I'm off to get ready for work now.
Have a good day.

2009-09-08T14:45:00.000+08:00

I have got to find a way to get to you. =|

Well, I've made up my indecisive mind.Going for work later, finally.I have to change my staff pass so will be going a little earlier.

And again, breakfast at work.How lovely ?

Have a good day earthling.
And if you see him.

2009-09-08T09:11:00.001+08:00

To bake or to go to work ?

2009-09-08T02:49:00.002+08:00

Thank god Blogger is okay.

The whole day was slow except when I started my ass off cleaning the mess in "my room" as a result of changing room ( I just have to mention it again ).The classic findings I discovered were Teletubbies watch, my fashion-designer-wannabe sketches and of course, Neoprints - a must-have for secondary school students. =) I didn't manage to tidy up the whole mess.Well, maybe two-third of it ? I just can't be bothered.

As a matter of fact, I was supposed to buy my Raya shoes just now but I was plain lazy just because of my room.And I have no idea when will I get cornflakes cookies baked. =|

Yeay, I can start fasting tomorrow.In fact, today.
And later, we're going to bowl, I think.With Aini.

The Moon hasn't been getting light from the Sun.
The Moon hasn't been singing to me.
Maybe the Moon is just sick ?
Or maybe the Moon is reflecting light to another planet ?

2009-09-07T01:34:00.004+08:00

Heh, I just detest exchanging room.Ayah uh.Ordered me to exchange room with my brother.Now I don't feel cosy anymore.Can't practically listen to the serenade of crickets and vehicles and wind and stuff.Now my room is green, no longer orange.Mirror in the wardrobe, no longer on the wall.Windows facing the other block, no longer along the corridor, where cool wind blows the curtains.This feels like shit, no offence.It's like my intimacy between my room and I is violated. =|

Why am I so emotional ?

Urgh, angst go away please.

2009-09-06T03:29:00.002+08:00

Wait.

I can't believe my dream guy is younger than me.
Babes, you guys should know who.
He's hot.
We ( I mean you ) used to say he looks like Ryan Sheckler.
Ring any bell ?

_ _ Z _ _

2009-09-06T02:21:00.003+08:00

Whoa.

As far as I'm concerned, I feel giddy having to absorb such heavy controversial issue to talk about.You might be wondering what is it.It's just a documentary I'm watching and that I got too confused, I decided perhaps blogging would help.It does.

It's remarkable how believing, having faith in a religion could lead to investigating downright how the religion itself came about.Then, it eventually causes you think deeper, putting your belief in jeopardy.Now I'm thinking, even having a religion is paradoxical.How weird can that be ?

Now, I'm off to watch the rest of the documentary - 40 solid minutes to go.You might think it's dreadful.No, absolutely not.I'm glued to my seat, the thrill's escalating. =)

My newfound addiction - http://www.topdocumentaryfilms.com/

2009-09-05T09:34:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, just the kind of time I needed - breakfast at Jalan Kayu.It wasn't bombastic solely because Dian and Lina weren't there.It would certainly be awesome if the two monsters were there. =) When's the next monster time girls ?

As for today, let's see if I have the will to go out and fly kites.The other option - baking.This time round, cornflakes cookies it'll be.Or maybe, I'll work.Life sure isn't easy I must say.

Alright.Off to run some errands
and thank you for reading.
Take care earthlings.

2009-09-03T03:31:00.000+08:00

There is no truth.Though I might be contradicting my statement in times to come.

I plainly feel hollow, literal hollow.

I can.I can't.I will.I think.

The whole idea drives me to the cornermost space, fluctuates me.

2009-09-02T03:08:00.000+08:00

I thought it was going to be a breeze.It was, apparently, but it got more mundane you see.So, I'd decided to continue the next morning.

The moon was empathising enough to accompany me throughout the silent night.I swear I couldn't ask for more.You know, I was thinking about the future, what will become of me ? What the world has to offer.Well, maybe not so much about that part.It's just about the future, time.It came across my preoccupied mind that I would want to decently travel in a hot air balloon.A huge,flambouyant one.Wait till I share this with the moon.He must have a lot to suggest.

I realize it's been long I have this urge to blog about this kind of personal issue.It's the mood I suppose.So it is pretty much based on THE mood.Heh.

Thanks for reading.
Anyway, I'll be working tomorrow.

Wait, why do you read my blog ?

2009-08-28T03:18:00.000+08:00

I heard you breathe.
SWEET ~

Goodbye, goodbye,
Good friend,
Goodbye.

Good night moon.
I love you.

2009-08-25T23:32:00.001+08:00

BLOGGER da gile.Sheeesh !

Finally, something in my head says I need to update.I ought to.
Well, ultimately, I've considering to transfer to wordpress perhaps ? Can't live with blogger anymore, seriously.

Kaypoh people like Ariffin and Nadia had been bugging me to update. -____-
And yes, I just got back from Geylang.Breakfast with monsters.One smart curly-whirly-haired monster had forgotten to bring along her memory card despite bringing her NEW DSLR.So much for wanting to surprise us ey azie ? Very good.

Had my share of Deng-deng and Famous Amos. =)

Psst, I'm changing to wordpress.I'll keep you updated.
Thank you for visiting. =)

2009-07-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

I'm at the end of a loose rope.Very loose rope.Clinging on tightly, I couldn't care less.
I need a breather.
Guess life sucks for now.( Not really )
Won't be updating much.Blogging is far less therapeutic than how it used to be.

Bye.Anyway, anybody up for a knee-change ? -___-

2009-07-15T13:49:00.005+08:00

~~Torn Ligament~~.
Lost 8-0.
I'm yet to be disappointed.
Still not.

Why do I even get myself involved ?
Pffft.

2009-07-14T10:37:00.004+08:00

(That is Teng How and that is Yan.)

Match against NYP later.I mean LATER. =|

I'm doomed lately.

Havainnas was stolen.
Guess I have to repeat a module-Navigational Safety. -___-
Being late EVERY TIME.
Not doing well in school.
Gaining weight ( fats )

I'm having lessons.Well, not exactly.Lecturer is giving out marks.Obviously, I did bad.
I'm off.
Sayonara !

2009-07-12T02:47:00.003+08:00

This discomfort I'm in, I can't help much.
Just to resist, to withstand the pain.
I'm hoping, wishing, praying as though the stars are gonna fall and amuse me.
Whether or not we're standing strong this very way, let the wise fate decide.
Sometimes it's dreadful, sometimes nauseous.Or rather mere filth.
I can't avoid all these words, can't continue bottling them up.
I can't breathe.
Perhaps, time would allow me to.

Again, I await.
I'm sorry, I have to.

I love you.

2009-07-11T03:25:00.002+08:00

Wait, I'm not done.
I want chocolates and Famous Amos Cookies.

Well, someone still owes me ice cream.
Yeah, you.Don't face your back on me. =P

2009-07-11T02:52:00.002+08:00

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
We ask ourselves "who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous and talented and fabulous."
Actually who are you not to be. " - Akeelah and The Bee.

Such a great movie.That somehow triggered me to make at least, a significant change in my imperfect life.I couldn't care less about being punctual.It's driving me crazy.Being late cause so much trouble and eventually, it'll lead you to feeling like a loser. =| Well, that's for me.One more thing.Being pretty much wary about the decisions I make, somehow makes me lose the zest of life which I definitely don't want to.I reckon this is the only time life couldn't have been more wonderful.I ought to get a life. 0___0

Apart from that, I gave soccer barbeque/bonding session a pass.Turned up for work instead for I couldn't find a decent replacement for myself.

Realized that a handful of snails had been squashed when I was on my way home.Pity.

That's for now.
Good morning. =)

Time, inevitable.
Love, incomplete.

2009-07-07T23:46:00.007+08:00

I slacked a whole lot today.Didn't turn up for school, so much for wanting to turn over a new leaf.I should shove it in my sorry ass I suppose.

Sorry for the vulgarity.I feel much better now.Well, I got into the team.Just that I'm not sure if I'm playing in the first string.For a start, making into team is just necessary enough for me. =) First match would be against NYP on 13th July at RP.I'm really hoping to kick butts, especially Mai.See you when I see you.Heh.

I was merely surfing the net just now and I just love this exceptional pair of boots.Perhaps, I just love simplicity.Take a look.

It's just amazing.One more thing, watch this :

CUTE. =)

I'm off.

I knew you cried.
I heard.
It's okay, I love you.

2009-07-06T00:24:00.005+08:00

I am very full.
I hate Dian.
I'm having school tomorrow.
I suppose I stand a chance to be in the team.
I have freaking obviously gained weight.
I don't know what I'm thinking about.
I can't sleep.
I thought life is easy-peasy-lemon-squeezy.( I miss Ms Charmaine Cecilia Fernandez )
I think I expected too much.
I got my 30bucks jammed in the ATM.
I played soccer in the rain just then. =D
I'm unsure what I'm waiting for.
I know.I'm waiting for the phone to vibrate.
I hope it's the right person.

2009-07-02T16:05:00.005+08:00

Ouh cool.This is lame but this entry marks my 200th post.Nyahahaha.
Azie has been loyal to me.I asked her if she has a Nokia charger and then she selambely replied " what for ?"
It's okay if you don't get me cause I'm restless and can't be bothered.I reckon today's a down day.I gave my papers away.Seamanship and Shipping Knowledge and Freight Logistics.*Poof*They were gone. -___-

Now I'm off to work after 5 long days.
Bye !
Thanks azie.Pssst, I heard your lame conversations. =P

2009-06-29T23:56:00.003+08:00

AAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHH !

I hate this.Dripping mucus, pieces and pieces if tissue paper, catching breath, bedridden.Wait.Still, I'm able to stare into this laptop screen.

So much for hating this, I still have to attend school, sit for exams and stuff.Been lazing around too much lately and yes, the school presented me with test papers which obviously, I couldn't manage.Afterall, one of the invigilator mentioned- " This is just an ICT ( I'm clueless what acronym that is ).You can always make it up the next semester." How is that ? I was struck.

Well, on a far more delightful note, I forked out $0.20 and got myself and elmo ezlink sticker.Naz claimed she treated me the remaining 1 dollar. =) And so, I'm just a happy kid.An ill happy kid to be precise.

Die ! I haven't read a single thing (not even a glance) on marine engineering knowledge which I'll be having the test tomorrow.Shit !

Bye !

I love you sugarpie.
Get well soon. <3>

2009-06-28T02:44:00.002+08:00

I feel really cold.
I've always wondered how great it would be like if i was the one.The one and only and nobody else.
Sometimes, I wished you could have said something.Maybe just a word though it wouldn't do any better.
Dreams are just dreams that I could never live without.
I just wish you know this decency in me, seriously.That's all I'm asking pleading for.
I'm sorry if it was harsh.

It's okay, I'm fine.

2009-06-26T04:00:00.004+08:00

In search of you,
I found somebody else.
Well, unlike you,
Who let the matter rest.

I think I'm in love with rangers.Nope, ranger.

2009-06-24T20:12:00.003+08:00

Hello !
Let's see.Yesterday, managed to catch the so pathetic movie-Land of Lost-with Wan.I swear to you, it is NOT worth your money and time and everything else.Once again, I regretted.On the other hand, that bugger didn't seem to fail cheering me up. =)

As for today, I'm am free from labour.Got up in the wee morning and off for soccer.2.4 was a breeze, since the weather was very much to my favour.Did a lot of sprinting and also as what the coach refers to-Execution of the body mechanics.Haha.Such "deep" words.Well, I'm expecting for the worst for tomorrow and Friday training.3 consecutive days, I know and I like. =) You know, I see myself as a loner in the soccer team and I prefer it to be that way.For now, I'm a fan of my own.

So much for now.
I love You.
Bye.

Why do you always make it up to me ?

2009-06-22T00:08:00.003+08:00

Today's a perfect day.Not perfectly perfect but well, just perfect.No other words could represent today.There's nothing much really.Woke up late this morning.Then, had a good shower, got some stuff washed and of course, room is finally neat and clean again.The house is all mine again today.Now I realized that the house belongs to me every Sunday.What more could I ask for ? *wink*

Soccer training session was frankly, tough just now.Maybe because I suck ? Maybe I've hell lot of skills to learn ? I don't know.Stamina wise, it's building.I could feel it. =) Apart from that, I absolutely think that my coach doesn't even know my name.He calls me like this- " You(pointing at me). You got to find space and ask for the ball.(Palms open facing the sky)." I have no idea why but I just adore his gestures.Heh.He's wee man too compared to most of the girls.Haha ! Ouh yes, now i know exactly how it feels like to play soccer on the artificial pitch.That's all for soccer.

Highlight of the day, I pampered myself with Doritos and The Natural Confectionery Jelly Beans.=) I'm just one happy kid.Don't bother me.

That's all for tonight.Not turning in yet though.
Goodnight to those who's going to bed soon.
Thank you for reading.

To Dian, Stay strong alright.I love you. <3

2009-06-19T03:44:00.003+08:00

I guess you're the one who makes me stay all night, keeping me a sheer company.For that, i thank you. =) Really appreciate it.

My vacation( study break) simply equates to work@SOS.I haven't even started on anything.Well maybe a couple of times reading notes.That didn't work anyway.So I suppose I ought to start working my ass off less I want to flung my MST ?? (whatever they call it).That's not my plan for now, obviously.

Will be waking up at 7 later on for soccer training at 9.Hope I could wake myself up.Ouh ya, I recommend you to watch the movie "UP".It's very entertaining and colourful =D .I enjoyed it very much.

I could doze off anytime soon in front of my ever-so-loyal laptop so I better get going now.
Goodnight.

I'llmissyoualways.You'rethebeatinmyheart.Don'tworry.

2009-06-17T02:20:00.004+08:00

I stepped on human beings' legs quite a few times today.It's kind of weird.I'd only apologized once among all. =___=

Well, that's on a lighter note compared to this one.I can't seem to get it why some colleagues just can't accept the way i work.Maybe i wasn't the in-charge but come on, is there anyway we could engage in some give-and-take here ? Or maybe whoever-the-person-is was plain egoistic ? I'm clueless.I guess I'll just let whoever-the-person-is be. =) May god bless you.

Listening to Robbie Williams now.His songs just made me sober or perhaps they're just mesmerizing.I can't sleep.I think I'm losing a little grip of my life now.Can't breathe cause I can't organize.Things just keep falling apart and things are also not in place.How more miserable could it be ?

Don't worry.
I'm still staring at the same moon you're watching at.

It's getting tougher.
Maybe I should quit.

2009-06-16T02:40:00.003+08:00

I MISS THE OLD YOU.

I DON'T KNOW WHY.

I MISS THE OLD YOU.

I JUST DO.

I HAVE TO.

DON'T ASK ME WHY.

I'm sorry because it's mandatory.

I wish it wasn't.

I have to.

2009-06-14T21:55:00.005+08:00

I guess I really need some time alone, the whole day.

I'm tired of quarrelling over nothing.It doesn't make any sense.Perhaps it's me, having hell of expectations.I don't know what to expect for.Maybe I should leave.Maybe it's too early.I shall anticipate.See what the complex yet simplified world has to offer, for idiots like me.

A jog to Sembawang Park again, like finally after so long.Wait, I need to change my jogging route.It's getting boring.
Apart from that, it felt good, having the whole house for myself.

I need to focus-studies.

ITE was the overall champion for Silat IVP, as I'd expected. -___-

2009-06-13T01:39:00.003+08:00

These are the phenomena of my life.It has never been better than this.I miss Dian a lot too.

A lot had happened.I don't get why people change.Maybe I change too but yet, I've never liked it.Maybe this is not the time for me to make any changes to my life cause the it would get worse.

One more thing, I don't get why this somebody likes to trouble me.I'm still resisting the pain deep within.When the time really comes, I shall speak my mind and let everybody know your true colours.Call me mean, whatever you want.

I really miss the old you.
I wouldn't want to change.
Not thinking about different normal beings.
I miss the old you badly.
I really do.

I'm sorry.I think this post is kind of messy and I just can't keep bottling it up, I'm sorry.
Goodnight.

2009-06-10T12:40:00.004+08:00

And finally, we bladed. =D But unfortunately, they were only me and Azie.Naz was schooling, YQ too.Dian is conquering mountains and all the best to her.

It was a great getaway.Watching a handful of people having class barbeques, having dips in the sea, playing volleyball, kids building sandcastles and every simple thing you could think of when going to the beach. =) And me ? I'd managed to pull through blading WITHOUT falling down.Heh, big achievement.*chuckles*
Me and Azie had dinner at AMK banquet then. Well, it was a well-spent Tuesday I assume.

The past weekends were great too.Silat Inter-Varsity Games ( IVP ) is now on.Met up with some of the old batch of national team, especially Mai.Haha.She's still the same old Mai whom I really cherish.Not to forget the rest too.Congratulations to those who won and will be fighting their way through semi-finals this coming Saturday.To those who failed, try harder next time. =)

That's all for now.Will be having soccer training later on.
Toodles.

2009-06-07T01:46:00.002+08:00

It's just in you.Or maybe, you're everything I need.Perhaps, I'm entrapped within my own weakness.I need to stay put, take my stand but I just can't.IT'S YOU.

And you, you're another company, pleasing me not in the right time.It's tumbling, crashing.It's devastating.

And me ? It doesn't come to me that way.

I'm sorry.

2009-06-05T09:36:00.002+08:00

GOOD MORNING !
Guess what ? Uncle Gerard cancelled his tutorial and I don't even know.
Now I'm at McDonalds.-___-

May you weren't aware or perhaps I shall assume you're ignorant ?

Wait.I can't upload any photo.The link is not working.Sheeeesh !

2009-06-05T02:47:00.002+08:00

I'm literally amused by the ants.I know, of all things, ANTS.Heh.Well, it's plainly the way they pause crawling on the wall when they meet one another, going towards different directions.It's like they're whispering some codes or something.It's cute. =P

Alright, back to technicality.I woke up late just now.Not extremely late but late.Decided not to go for lesson only after Ash mentioned he would not be going unless we're going on board SP Dover ( it's like a luxury boat, i guess ) which the class didn't.Managed to complete Marine Engineering Knowledge quiz which relieved me a little and then I took a very short nap.Got off for work and now, I'm here, still wide awake.

Not planning to sleep yet.I've still got Microsoft Access to complete.Then prepare my stuff for tomorrow.I'm meeting the silat bunch tomorrow.Weehee ! Mai, here I come.I miss you loads man.I'm kind of nervous actually, after 2 years + not meeting you. =)

That's all for now.
Good morning cause it's already 3.

I reckon I miss you, and the rest of you.Don't worry too much.

2009-06-04T01:42:00.004+08:00

Soccer training was a bit of a challenge for me.Besides that, I realized I wasn't the usual me.I mean I tend to be the introverted one but not for today though.Was excited or rather hyped up for the whole training session. =) Did some basic kicks, heading, possession & circuit, which I had somewhat done it during silat nationals time.How I miss the team.Ouh yes, most probably I'll be meeting a bunch of them on Friday, when they're having the Silat Inter-Varsity opening ceremony.I can't wait.

Assignments are mounting up but I've yet to complete them.Still procrastinating and I shall bear the consequences, I hope.

There are 3.What if I choose one ? Will I eventually throb them ? I apologize to all the 3 wonderful parties.

Goodnight People of The World.
Sweet dreams and thank you for dropping by. =)

2009-06-02T15:24:00.004+08:00

Alright, frankly, this is the first time I'm going to update my blog immediately right after an instant feeling

Well, it's not a big issue but I find him irritating sometimes.Maybe for now, he's very irritating.I have no idea how i could deal with him despite he, being courteous.Worst still, it might just have been me.I'm in need of absolute guidance now.Pathetic.

One more critical point, I need to loss weight and I really mean it.It only depends on me, will I sacrifice food-my ever loyal companion.Argh, this is killing me.I guess I shall cut down on unnecessary snacks now-Subway cookies, McFlurry, Snickers, Pocky, Nuggets, Hashbrown and the list goes on and on. =|

I'm bored now, waiting for the next lesson to start.Currently sitting in my favourite cornermost spot which keeps me warm. =) Heh.

Bye now.
Off to watch funny videos.

2009-06-02T01:27:00.005+08:00

Every time I do Gate 4, I'll feel this special sense of satisfaction and to add on, it kind of makes my day somehow.That was 2 days ago, which I find myself being very knowledgeable for once.Heh.

School was fine.Well, I decided not to attend the first 2 hours of lesson reason being I was simply LAZY.The rest of the day was fruitful, having to clear my Freight Transport & Logistics doubts, a whole lot of doubts.Planned to chill at clubhouse but I ended up being at Gate 5 ( working ).Vacation is technically very near and that implies I shouldn't involve myself in too many activities.Perhaps, I should literally eradicate my "laze-infested" brain for term test is just round the corner.

I thought I could make it solely, without you.I think, I think and I think.Maybe it's only for now, for the time being.Most probably, we can't.I'm truthfully confused and it all lies on you.

Wait, should I give my hair a new touch ?
Goodnight. =)

2009-05-31T03:27:00.003+08:00

I miss Silat and I'm off to sleep.
Pretty, pretty GOODNIGHT !

i think i like you.

2009-05-30T01:51:00.004+08:00

( IDEAS module@Vivo )

( Making our way to Al-Azhar )

And so...I possess this sudden urge to blog, as you can see. =) Well, a lot have been happening especially in school.Recently, had to go to Vivocity to conduct a so called research and i definitely find it crappy.Furthermore, it has nothing got to do with my course.

Putting that aside, I have never came to school on time this week which shows how pathetic I can be.I was even absent on Thursday as a result of my period.Apart from that, I absent myself from soccer training on Wednesday which I regretted not coming for no apparent reason.Ouh ya ! Have I mentioned that SP Girls Soccer was trashed 4-0 by Nationals under-15 Girls.That clearly shows how bad the team is.To be exact, the seniors had loss their "touch". =)

On a much lighter note, SMAC peeps have been absolutely an awesome bunch of human-beings and no doubt, they make my day always.SMAC had its meeting just now and I have no idea what is it about.That's not the issue anyway.Well, we went to Al-Azhar at Bukit Timah to have our late dinner.I had Black Pepper Fried Rice and Blueberry Milkshake, which is worth trying.Guess what ? I'm still full now. -___-

That's all for now.

I would want to thank SMAC for the great evening.*big hug*

and to you, things are hanging in the air for we couldn't compromise.

2009-05-23T14:23:00.003+08:00

Okay.Frankly, I have got no mood to update.Heh.But looking at the state of my pathetic blog, I'll update for the sake of updating.Nyahaha.

Well, school's been fun and it keeps me occupied all the time.No complains for now.Besides that, hanging out at clubhouse is...hmm...entertaining ? All because of the wonderful people I suppose.I'll have my soccer friendly match tomorrow, against Nationals under 15.Wish me luck ! =D

Besides that, I managed to watch Xmen Origin yesterday.It was fine.Okay, it's getting boring.
I'm off now.Goodbye !

2009-05-17T13:58:00.002+08:00

And finally, met up with my girlfriends. =) It's such a relief.Didn't catch up much with Dian and Yanqing though.Nevermind, I shall wait patiently for Monday.Please make it happen.

As for Naz and Azie, managed to update each other.Well, it's simply about _ _ _ _. *wink* Had Coffee Bean and accompanied Naz to "complete" her assignment.Then had dinner at Koufu.

This entry is absolutely a plain and mundane one.It doesn't matter.

Ouh yes.I caught you off-guard.

2009-05-13T23:48:00.004+08:00

Now I'm in an extreme confusion.Should I or should I not resort to lying.? Of course the apparent answer would be yes, I should.Come to think of it, I wouldn't gain nothing if I were to do so.I shall think very hard, deep, whatever you call it.

I had my first official football training just then.Well, it was not that tiring BUT legs are aching very much.I guess I'll stick to football for first year or maybe till the second year and also thought of joining Adventure Club in second year.Think far...VERY far. =) Ouh ! The worst part of training for today was that (bear with me) we were having a mini match and I was running after the ball with much enthusiasm, hoping I'll get good chance to whack the ball but instead, I was the one who was whacked like there's no tomorrow.=_= And guess what ? It's was smacked in the middle of my stomach.There was even u thud (thump ?) The feeling was kind of funny cause it's been a while I had my silat training, getting kicked in the stomach.I felt like laughing though. =D

For the first time in SP, i ran around the whole school.Thanks to SMA peeps who are very sporty and inspiring.I shall make it a routine.I promise this will work.Other than that, I'll be working tomorrow, after quite some time.kinda missing work.

I'm off now.I think I like you.Heh, shh...*wink*

2009-05-09T13:59:00.003+08:00

ouh, god bless me.finally, i had one decent outing with my family though it's nowhere far.it was just a breakfast, a good one-prata at marsiling.i had avocado milkshake too, which was nothing compared to sp's. =)

i feel redundant having to admit i'm busy all the time.now i'll get this clear.it's not that i'm busy.it's just that i'm occupied.sometimes, I make MYSELF occupied.well, i'm fine staying this way and i don't need any changes, at least for now.one more issue i'm always fickle about is whether or not to cut my hair.moreover, i'm joining soccer and tying and keeping my hair in place is an extreme hassle.i'm afraid i'll regret later on.=|

AND, i kind of have my eyes fixated on this particular soul.=P shhh...i shall keep it low.

bye now !

2009-05-05T00:35:00.002+08:00

i guess when things go wrong and everything comes down crushing on me,
i've got my friends by my side, doesn't matter if i just got to know them.

i guess this is just the beginning of a new phase.i'm all ready rest of the phase. =)

2009-05-03T01:16:00.002+08:00

i don't like changes.

2009-04-30T00:38:00.003+08:00

ouh god !
it's been a WHILE since i last blogged.

it kind of hit me hard when i first thought this whole idea, perhaps a revolution would stay much longer but i was proved otherwise.i guess being ignorant once in a while will treat my heartache(chey).ha-ha.

well, a lot had happened and i know it's redundant.IT skill lesson is kinder on my side since i've made effort to practice it. =) another module i like is hmm...financial accounting in shipping ? which is similar to POA ironically.it all lies on who the lecturer is.initially, the modules i started of learning are somewhat foreign to my pitiful brain but they just got familiarised kind of easily.

another important thing to highlight is that i made myself an ice cream sandwich-bread, chocolate ice cream, strawberry ice cream, cookies crisps, blackforest cadbury chocolate bar.it's so filling, i swear. scrumptious ! lalala~

today ??? went for the soccer trial and i guess the team lacks unity, pardon me.that's all i've got for them.going for another trial next week on wednesday@7pm ! =)

i'm done for now.
and i miss you.can't afford to deny.
goodnight sweetheart.

2009-04-27T00:01:00.002+08:00

aaaahhhh...life in poly is certainly different from secondary school's life and i've yet to adapt to my very atmosphere.i still do feel inferior/intimidated/foreign and ultimately lost.it's very miserable, i swear but with the help of the knowledgeable seniors, life's a ton, well maybe speck smoother. =) plus, hanging out in SMA clubhouse has made me feel a strong sense of belonging.

anyway, i'll be having a soccer trial this wednesday.i hope everything will be fine.everything includes the peeps, the institution, the coach, and of course, the training(trial) itself.i haven't receive my ezlink yet which results in me, having to fork out money to top up my ezlink credit VERY frequently.shhheeeesh !

and on a heavier note, i can't recall how i first talked to him.as time flies, i hate him.it's not just hatred.it's just revolting, i feel like puking right into his cock eye shit face.and in my misfortune, i'll see his face always.argh, freak bugger ! *pulls hair*

shit !

toodles and goodnight !